urm..

aku pon x taw nape seminggu neyh aku bad mud sgt2....

aku terlalu tensyen smpai aku babit kan org lain...

aku tensyen ngan membe....

knape kalu time aku korang sume xleh nak cube paham.. tapi bile time dorang..

dorang nak aku paham dorang sgt2.. aku x paham...

kenapa aku slalu mcm nih.

for me.... i've done my part. but still... the effect is still  there..

i just hope i can be quiet person...

i really hoping that... becoz... ever since im in secondary school i kept on hurting people feelings... 

until they said to me..

"aku malas la nak ckap ngan ko... bile aku ckap ngan ko je wat saket ati.."..

sincerely i said.. everytime i heard that phrases..

it will give me a chill down by my spine.... 

i cannot heard that ... pls.... i dont want that ...

i really2 hope i'll never hear that phrases again.. but still.... i kept on hearing that from sumone around me...

aku taw .. aku nih sape.... ak taw aku nih suke wat lawak bodo... tapi aku x de niat pon nak saket kan hati sape2... 

mmg aku suke tolong org... tapi bile nak mintak tolong je baik ngan aku,.. bile x...

korang pandang aku mcm sampah kan...

aku taw... aku nih just korng still aggap aku org luar.. aku x kisah,

sbb tuh aku putuskan utk kurang kan bercakap ngan korang,..

aku akan bercakap ngan korang biler ade mende penting je... aku dah serik.. 

sbb stiap kali .... aku di jadi kan tmpat utk org lepas geram...

utk tu je ke aku idup slame ni... 

aku kat ktyaga nih nak study... nak membina mase depan.. aku xkan buat sume nih kalu bukan sbb 

umi penah nasihat aku....

"yan,,, ape2 pon yang kite buat... kite niat.. kite buat hanye kerana ALLAH taala..."

aku still x dpt lupe ape yg umi ckap tuh... walaupon time tuh aku 4 taun...

sampai skarang....

and now i have her on my side... 

instead just for ALLAH... 

i'll always  doing my part of life for umi ,my famely.. and her..

i wanted to create a life that is harmony... i dont want luxury... i dont want a lot of money..i just wanted happiness and wealth for me..... aand my famely...

thats all....

i felt like i 'd really have become part of her .... and i 'm grateful...

aku seronok.... sbb aku dpt jumpe si dye..

aku seronok sbb aku semakin rapat dgn dye...

aku seronok...sbb ari ni dah masuk 6 bulan 3 minggu 3 hari kitorang dah ade relationship nih...

walau pun aku taw... selagi kite blom kawin..ape2 pon leh jd... 

tapi jgn lak lupe... lepas kawin ..ape2 pon leh trjadi gak...

so.. xkire la sebelom or selepas.. pls la... take care of your relationship so it'll become sumtink that u will feel comfortable all the time... 

u will feel there is sumone is always waiting for u...

u will always think about urself becoz of that(not me) haha...

becoz ..i'll dont tink that im important... i never love mysef..

maybe u all will said sumtink that i dont know..

but for me... just let it be.. just let me by myself.. i know she 'll understand that somehow..

for me.. relationship is needed so that we willl always do our job more effectively becoz we will know the our partner will supports us rite?

if u have relationship,,\

1. u'll think foward
2. behave urself
3. u begin to respect ppl
4. u'll begin to work hard her ur partner.
5. u can learn to be patient..
6. u can learn to be matured thinking

aku snyum stiap kali aku tringat saat aku dgn dye... sbb bile aku dgn dye.... aku slalu tgk muke dye

muke dye wat aku rase tenang...

wat aku rase mcm xde masalah langsung

 wat aku epy

 wat mata aku sejuk je bile pandang dye

buu\at aku rase jatoh cinta lagi bile setiap kalu dye snyum kat aku..

dye cantik pada pandangan mata aku..

dye comel pada pandangan mate aku 

dye ayu pada pandang mate aku

dye indah pada pandangan mate aku

aku sayang senyuman dye.. 

aku nak sgt jage snyuman dye...

urm... bile di kenang...

patot la aku rase diri aku x penting...
patot la ..patot la..

n then ... ape yg aku rase sampai aku jadi mcm diri aku yg sebelom nih...

baru aku sedar ...kenapa mende tuh terjadi...

bile di soal ...

baru aku igt jawapan..bile di igt jawapan...

baru taw betapa nasib aku berbeza dgn org lain...

n then... 

baru aku taw yg aku nih upenye sad person... not a cherishful person..

baru aku taw....

patot la....patot la..

aku cerita sume nye kat si dye... n then aku rase mcm ... aku mimtak simpati

patot ke aku cerita sepatot nye... aku rase mcm aku langsung x de ciri2 yg gurls nak... haiyaa.a..

i'm stupid...

aku wat org yg cintakan aku menangis,..., 

aaarrghhh...

tensyen aku...

weird ...

urm...a bit weird taw....sbb

kalu bile aku date ngan si dye kan,...

mesti ade (4)

haa.... nape eyh...

1st date= 24 july

2nd date= 4 august

3rd=14 august

4th=24 august

5th= 4 september..

birthday pon x lari dari 4 gak..

her birthday=14 september

my bithday=27/4....

haha....

ayokkk

raye...

uwaaaa..... aku seno nye x tido dari semalam .. ahaha... 

ade la sebab dye.. hehe...

tapi mende2 yg baik la... urm.. pagi2 aku dah kene rider ..

mule2 anto umi g masjed.. 

pastu pusing balek.. amek kokni pulak...

pastu adek...

hai....

punye la segan aku td... time TENGAH solat raye nih.. tetibe teng99..

bunyi msg aku.. aaa!!! haha.. disebabkan aku kusyuk...aku watdek je la...

kalu korang nka taw bunyi dye.. 

korang pegi kat ringrone korang

cari name ascending..

haaa... bawu korang taw..

lepas solat.. ade khutbah.. pasal jihad memerangi nafsu,,

lepas tuh g kubur arwah yed...

aku smpat la bace yassiin tok arwah yed... 

pastu balek.. nih pon ngah nak get ready tok p umah wanco(makcik)...

bg aku taun nih.. x semeriah taun2 yg lepas... xde abgyang..xde wancu..xde wancik...

kalu dorang ade dgn famely dorang kan.

umah aku cam berperang... ahaha... gelak sane gelak sini..kejo sana kejo sini.,,

sembang sane sembang sini..facebook sane facebook sini...ahaha

aku paling rapat ngan sedare aku dari Pulau pinang,, name nye syed aminuddin... 

org panggel abengah..(abgngah la) 

kalu dye ade..mcm2 sembang..

myk gak kongsi2 rahsie ngan dye.. 

urm.. tapi.. aku still x lupe...kat org yang aku cinta..fatin az zahra!!..

ahaha... dye raye kat perak..aku kat k.l

ahah! 

utk time2 camni lah korang akan rase mcm pasangan terlalu bz sgt sampai x reply msg kan..

korang just perlu bersaba jer... ahaha.. dye pon ade komitmen lain..

korang just perlu percaya kat dye je.... insyaALLAH

kalu ade  jodoh x kemana kan?!..haaaa

huhu... arini dah 1st day raye...

around dalam 2a.m kot..

aku tgk tv 3... cite AIR MATE SYAWAL

actor=rosyam nor,vaneeda imran,jalil hamid..n lagi sorang.. sape tah.

cite dye wat aku tersentuh gak arh..sbb.cerita tuh tentang 

trust between siblings..

ha... tapi dalm cite tuh 

3 beradik je.. so aku terbayang kan... 

sibling aku yg ade 9 orang nih cane la kan.. hoho

hati aku tersentuh gak la tgk cite tuh.. 

pape pon... aku just nak ckap..

tadi aku g masjed jamek...

aku jumpe syarifuddin(katyaga) saddam(plkn(delta)) hasan,hazwan n faez(smksa)

n then... aku beli baju raya... sorang2 je.. tapi still berteman kan aten... not on my side...

but in my hearts n by phone we are connected.. cewaah... ahaha

so... aku beli baju raye kaler itam... baru aku pasan ... 

selama ni aku yg dari kecik mmg suke kale itam x penah terbayang pon nak beli baju 

raye kale itam... haa... pelik2 je..

n then aku beli baju kale itam pon sbb nak match kan ngan aten gak.. ahaha..

 amboiii...

aku beli baju.. watch.n papelagi lah..

ado ko.. aku igt nak jln kaki dari masjed jamek sampai umah.. ahha

tapi bile aku jalan dah sampai KLCC

aku tgk jalanraya kat around situ x se jam mcm kat masjed jamek tuh...

so aku decide aku tahan teksi.. haaa..

sampai je kat umah.. aku try baju baru. haa

best!! 

dye nak balik umah dye~!!!

haaa.... thats mean.. she getting bz ... ahah

sbb dye da lame nak luang kan mase ngan ma dye.

so for me... i trust her. n i do love her.. ta kesah...

sbb aku percaye kat dye.. yg dye syg aku ... n aku pon taw dye percaye kat aku yg aku syg dye...

haa...i love u syg... 

haaa... aku nak bg taw korang laa...

korang nak taw x ape yg leh wat strengthen our relationship between each other...

not only for strengthening the relationship... but  that things

also exist as the backbone of the relationship..

1stl... trust/faithful to each other...

haa.. nape aku ckap camtu??

sbb kalu kite trust /faithful to each other...
yela... kalu kite xpcaya kan each other kan... kalu tgh2 texting tuh..
tetibe si dye lmbat bebeno nak reply...
haa... kalu korang xde trust/ faithful korang.. mesti kroang dah pikir yg bukan2...
ckap dye msg ngan laki lain la...
kalu dye kuar tapi bukan ngan korang..
mesti korang ckap dye kuar ngan laki lain la...
haa... tapi
kalu ade nye trust //faithful to each other... sume mende ni xkan blaku
haa...btol x?


cube korang byg kan...korang ckap kat pasangan korang... "awk msg ngan laki/gurls laen kan!?"
xke hancur hati pasangan korg tuh..
sbb nye.. dah terang2 korg ckap korg x percayakan dye...
kecian taw pasangan korg tuh..

n then ..

2ndly...patient...haa..

nih lagi penting.... kalu korang nih jenes x menyabo abeh la... korang kene la belajo gak..
ahaha..

sbb dalam hidup.. kite mesti ada sasaran... mesti ade target yg korang nak sasar kan.
so.. jgn lupe...kalu kite ade.. org lain pon ade gak.. so pasangan korang pon ade sasaran dye sendiri
kite xleh nak penting kan diri sendiri..kite kene byk bersabar kalu nak lalui hidup2 yg menyeronok
bersama org yg tersayang..kalu kite dah capai sasaran kite... tapi pasangan kite still lom capai lagi..
kite kene la bersabar dan bg dye mase tuk dye pon merealisasikan impian dye,., kan3..


urm... au pon tataw la nak ckap ape... tapi yg penting,
kalu korang nak jage relationship between u  n ur beloved one... u have to keep these in ur mind!
ahaaa...

pape pon.. aku syg dye... tuh.. ade je gambo dye kat sebelah.. sape lagi.. haa...
adik kiciy~

hurm... free call...

ahha,,,,  aku dpt free call for a weeks... ahaha.. thx celcom....

so... for the 1st time... i never check my balance after i made a phone call

ahaha...

no one else that i wanted to call actually except for her... ahaha..

aqil... ahaha... time kalu aku busan... aku slalu kaco dye.. ahah

1st time i met her..... 24 july...

hurm... on that day kan... aku rase cam dah wat keputusan ... aku decide nak g jumpe si dye gak,,, so aku tanyer housemate aku kat melake nih,,, 

"mirul.... nak mintak tolong ko sikit leh,,,?"

"amende bob?"

"jom p unikl nak?"

"watpe g sane?

"nak jumpe awek aku,,, hehe"

"jom."

"bukan skang la,,, mlm sket... aku igt nak pg pasar malam kat tampin n then aku belikan pape tuk dye"

"aku set je..."

pastu ahaha..aku nih ngok sket... dah pkol 9 aku still main game.. adeh...

mirul pon marah... 

" bob! ko nak grak xnak??""

"nak le... "

"dah pkol bape nih.... kang kedai tutop cane?"

"yeke ...jom2!! "

lepas tu... gerak la...

and then sampai kat tampin.. pasar malam tuh dah tutup.. ahaha

adeh... nyesal aku...

hoho..

then aku decide nak bg di dye kueytiyaw tomyam.. haa... pg kat kdai mkn sebelum 

railway station kat tampin tuh.... kitorang rush!!

ahaha.. then... around pkol 10.30 mlm... sampai unikl

on that time... when i 1st time i saw her face live in front of me without any lies ..

i felt like i was exploded inside...

WARGHH!!!!!

epy gler dok~~~!!!!!!!!

1st time aku tgkdye..walopon time tu dah malam.. aku still leh nmpak dye snyum kat aku...

bg aku

 taste aku utk cari pasangan idup selama nih.. sume ade kat dye...

1. kecik(paras bahu jerk...) hoho
2. comel
3. cantik
4. melindungi aurat
5. solehah
6. manja
7. penyayang
8. caring
9. understanding
10. supportive
11. adorable
12. faithful
13. trusted
14. lovely
15. smart

mase tuh aku bg dye kueytiyaw tomyam tuh..ngan milo ais.. ahaha

aku nmpak dye nye snyuman... manis sgt9!!

cair aku di buat nye.. ahaha..

n then... kitorang pon balek...

aku plok amirul kat ateh moto tuh.. haha.. epy aku  is speechless... ahha

i love u aten...

Plkn...27 mac --- 12 june....

for me...   aku mmg x sabo menyabo nak g plkn... n then dapat lak kat sarawak.... 

27mac 2010

i can't sleep.... aigooo... but luckily... i have her..... my ayg~~

hehee.....

dye wat webcam.. haa... comel bhai~~!!

kitorang chattng sampai pkol 4.... for me... i was like.... waa

there IS a girl who can accompany me till i was going to sarawak... i am grateful to that....

urm... aku rase bahgia sgt2 la.... bcoz ade org teman aku through day n night... haaa..

and then... when i've arrive to stadium bukit jalil Car Park C...in 0445 hours...

i dont see any one ... haaa....takut aku dibuat nye.. takut kene wakena beb..ahha..

waited..waited..waited n waited

tetibe ade org dtg.. haha... fuh!! legoo...

mase tuh tetibe aku ase cam nmpak kelibat membe aku yang paling rapat time skola rendah dulu....

FARID!!!(ayed)

omygosh!! tetibe aku rase cam ahhaa... aku ngan dye mmg xleh dipisah kan... ahah.

 aha...kalu nak cite sume skali mmg xkan abeh la... adeh..

pastu ade funny moment.... ahaha.. aku x taw la kete myvi sape....

dye parking pastu x trik handbrek...kelamkabot bapoknye duduk trik handbreak... 

dye dye kelamkabot tu la aku tgk .. ahaha....

gelak beso aku time tuh....

tapi time tuh .. kat tgn aku still texting org aku cinta... ahaha.. HER!! sapo laie...  

ahaha.... 

kalu dah plkn.. of kos le botak!! ahaha...

ahaaa... rumours ade yang cakap muke aku mcm bigshow.!! aaa! aha

ape daa....

PLkn mmg besh!! 

x tipu... aku dpt myk anak... ahaha... 

aku di assign kan utk jd SUO delta.. hoho...

kompeni delta... dalam kenangan... bab aku dpt sibling baru..

even dorang non-muslims... but aku still respek dorang sbb dorang respek agama islam...

most of them iban... and bumiputera.. haaa...

huuhu.. aku still rindu dorang... haaa...

n then... aku kat sane ade anak.... ahaha..

ni skit je.... 

firah...zati.,ain... rasyiqah.. n si mek juo... ape name dye ta.. ahaha....x igt!! ape ea.... haha

wendy,,siti,, and choki2... ahaa... 

dom~~~~

wira...

ayed,hilmi,rosli,fendi,ruben,khairul,syafiq,syawal,rudy,nazrin,haikal,naqib,nizam,asriadi,sani,jack arng,saddam n faiz,,

quan yang yik(SUO charlie) me (SUO delta) rabecca(prebet charlie) lawrence edward ajan(SUO alpha n hafizuddin(SUO bravo)

night of thousand night..

asan,apis din, abdul rahman,, me,, and quan..

haha.... tu aku nye plak... rabbeca pgg.. wira terbaik la katekan... ahakzz~!!

flag~~!!

farewelll~!! plkn similajau bintulu..

psst,,,, even if there are a lot of activities in the camp... buts still

every week... i keep on calling her... texting her... becoz i love a lilttle bit more day by day,,,